My 11 year old son was diagnosed with ocd a little over a year ago.He was put under a child psychitrist ,and just talked a lot about his obsessions ,and what scares him.After a while my son settled down a great deal,and only had the odd bad days.About 2 months ago ,i noticed him getting bad again,but this time seems to be worse than ever.Everything its poisoning him,he thinks he has aids, or cancer ,feels sick all the time ,and sometimes is physically sick.He gets himself in such a state its heart breaking to watch.He is losing weight rapidly ,but no one seems to wanna listen .Ive took him doctors ,who sent him to his psychitrist ,who talked again to him about his ocd ,and what it is ,and why he feels the way he does.He was ok for a couple of hours, but then slipped back to worse than ever.Everything he touches has to be cleaned again by me, i have to taste all hisfood ,if im lucky to get some down him.His drinks are becoming the same.He constantly thinks something is wrong with him ,or something bad is going to happen.He wont sleep in his own bed ,and will only sleep wrapped up in a blanket i have, which i call my comfy blanket ,in bed with me..Iam really worried for him ,as he is dyslexic to ,and has his sats in may ,ready for big school.He is already way behind his school work because of his school ,throwing him out for 6 months ,cos they didnt know how to deal with his ocd.(I had to fight real hard to get him back into full time education),plus him being dyslexic , its harder for him to learn.I am desperately worried about his health.He has lost half a stone already which is a lot for a growing child. I am doing everything i can to help him ,with taking classes ,to help him with his school work ,reading up ,and spending quality talk time with him every night.Sometimes i dont get asleep until 2 and 3,and i feel exhausted.I am suffering anxiety and depression , awaiting counceling and feel worn out. I have come out in spots which i never get as a rule,colesaw and headaches.I feel nobody will really listen ,to the pain my boy is suffering.Therapy just aint working for him ,and i feel a 11 year old boy shouldnt have to be thrown into this type of pain and left to deal with it alone.Its affecting every part of his life ,and mine ,and is tiring for him just as much as it is me.he needs constant reasurrance from me, and dosent trust anybody else.i am a single parent ,and have no family to help,or friends as I am from gateacre a different area ,and feel so despertate,frustrated and annoyed at the system.my son needs proper help ,and not just an hour talk and packed of for another 3 weeks,hes getting worse and im worried he will go sick cause he wont eat ,and is losing weight.i cant give him vitamins as he wont take any kind of tablets or medicine,so even when he feels sick ,or has a head ache ,he would rather deal with the pain than take tablets.he feels scared around people and thinks he is gonna catch everything,these are just some of his symtoms.I cant help crying ,and i feel his pain ,its tearing me to bits, and i feel im slowly hitting rock bottom,im afraid this will make my son worse .I feel i want to grieve for so many things, but i cant i have to be strong for my son.i have had a bad last two years with the loss of my parents,and my 14 year old daughter being in hospital with meningitis.these are just a couple.
We just need some hope ,something to cling to,advice as I really don’t know what to do.school,doctors,no one will listen to the desperation and urgency in our problem.this is a constent thing from morning until early hours.i just feel so empty inside,sometimes i just feel lost.His school is aware of all his problems but he dosent seem to be heard.


Moe. Northwood,Kirkby.