A textbook example of delusion of reference, in which the deluded believes almost everything on TV, radio, or spoken in a crowd is directed at him. Includes a massive collection of sound and video clips as evidence, complete with the probability that they were directed at him personally. Information Society's album "Hack" ranks 100% while Metallica's "The Unforgiven" ranks only %20.



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You have to understand that the psychopaths of the Security Service consider their abuse of me to be "so funny"; and central to their persecution of me is their inducement of their "bought journalists" like the BBC's Nicholas Witchell to laugh at me on television.
When Snow said "half-past seven", I looked at the clock on the mantelpiece above the TV. Snow saw my glance, and in reaction to my glance at the clock, smiled. I think he was smiling at what he perceived as my self-importance.
In 1990 after I had listened to a pirate radio station in South London for about half an hour, there was an audible phone call in the background, followed by total silence for a few moments, then shrieks of laughter. "So what are we supposed to say now? Deadly torture? He's going to talk to us now, isn't he?", which meant that they could hear what I would say in my room.
Neil Fox was introducing some petite Swedish songstress, sounded like Amelia, when he said something about her petite-ness ; "she's a big big girl, actually she's really about tiny, she's this big, would you say what less than....." then one of his studio staff shouted, "six inches" then Fox laughed and said, "less than a meter tall, definitely" What I think the "six inches" referred to should be obvious. I think it's sexual abuse directed at me.
Jackie King from the Flying Eye made these remarks on Sunday (14/3/99) lunchtime 12.24pm; "gas main work being, er, HANDLED if you like (laughs, embarrassed) outside Madame Tussauds, Euston Road obviously feeling the backlash of that". The key word is "handled", which she sounds embarrassed to be saying; to me it looks like an attempt at a sexual slander. Capital Radio aren't even pretending not to get at me any more. I asked Chris Tarrant several times about his remark from 1994, and he has consistently avoided answering.
At this time I was watching television almost continuously at home, with a video recorder whirring away, trying to obtain from the newscasters a reaction which would give them away. I think this is an instance where it happened. Ken Clarke first darts a glance straight at the video camera (and perhaps at a monitor next to it showing my living room), then comes out with "all kinds of mad things", while engaging in a facial display involving raising of eyebrows and lowering of eyelids. To me at the time, and also now, it looked as if he was selecting a context into which he could drop the word "mad" as a directed insult against me.
Believe me, I do not look mad in real life, these young people would not have directed their comments and laughter at me unless they had already been told by others that I was ill. I am absolutely certain that their behaviour was directed at me, and this audio file is particularly clear.
Anyway, I'm only giving this a 20% because it would be a bit big-headed to think that a rock icon like James Hetfield would spend his time writing about a nobody like yours truly. But then other people have dedicated their time to me, so who knows?
It is my belief that my persecutors, who monitor my home telephone line (and consequently read all modem communications including email), were aware of this meeting, and may even have observed the "meat" taking place. Following the "meat" it seemed to me that one or two attempts were made by my persecutors to portray me as "gay", on the basis of Simon's suede miniskirt, which in their inventiveness my persecutors attributed to me, not Simon.